It's hard enough to admit that you are depressed. It's even harder to rely on pills to make yourself feel normal and happy. I absolutely hate having to take medication everyday. I take one pill for my hypothyroidism, which I'll have to take for the rest of my life, and one antidepressant. Since I was diagnosed with depression, I have been prescribed a number of different medications and have adjusted the dosages accordingly until I was able to find something that worked. I think what I'm taking now really does help me, but I wish I didn't have to take them. I just wish I was able to think happy thoughts and everything would be okay.
Over the years I have gone through this cycle of fighting taking medication to feeling so hopeless I actually wanted it. I would take my medication for a couple of weeks, maybe a month and start to feel good. Once I started to feel better I would stop taking the medication in hopes of being able to keep the positivity going. But eventually I would crash...hard. I would fall into the deepest pits of depression and I wouldn't even know what had caused my depression, just that it would overwhelm and consume me. At this point I would finally be willing to take it because I couldn't handle the pain anymore.Yet this would happen again and again. |
Yes it's true that there are a number of side effects, but that's true when it comes to any medication. That is why you have to talk to your doctor and they can find what will be best for you specifically and inform you on what wouldn't be wise to take. And yes it's true that the medication might not work. Then you have to adjust the levels and maybe even try a few different kinds of medication. Obviously if there are ways that make you feel better without medication then it would be best to do that. But sometimes you do need it and that's okay. That's something I'm still learning to accept. It's not easy.
"Taking pills doesn't make you weak. It means you are strong enough to accept you need help."