I'm going to be completely honest. This week has been really hard. It started out bad with me being sick Sunday and Monday. Then Tuesday came and my boyfriend was in a car accident. Once that happened it didn't matter about me, all I cared about was taking care of him. Unfortunately I couldn't stay strong long enough because Friday I had another breakdown. I could not get out of bed. All I was able to do all day was sleep and cry.
My poor boyfriend is always there for me and was there for me once again, but I can tell that he hates it. He hates seeing my so depressed and it makes him angry to know he can't do anything to help. Seeing him upset from seeing me upset makes me EVEN MORE upset at myself for causing him grief. It's a very vicious cycle. Saturday came and the same thing happened. I couldn't do life. I couldn't get dressed, go out, or do anything with myself besides wallow in my own sadness. My boyfriend and I ended up in a fight because he is the type of person that can't just sit at home all day, but that is the only thing I can do when I feel so terrible.
I just wish that the burden didn't fall on him. I try to hide it from him. I call my mother and cry to her a lot. I call my best friend who is 4 hours away and cry to her, but it doesn't help. I have had previous boyfriends break up with me because they can't handle how "emotional" I am. My biggest fear is that no one will want to be with me because I'm "crazy" or "over emotional".
My poor boyfriend is always there for me and was there for me once again, but I can tell that he hates it. He hates seeing my so depressed and it makes him angry to know he can't do anything to help. Seeing him upset from seeing me upset makes me EVEN MORE upset at myself for causing him grief. It's a very vicious cycle. Saturday came and the same thing happened. I couldn't do life. I couldn't get dressed, go out, or do anything with myself besides wallow in my own sadness. My boyfriend and I ended up in a fight because he is the type of person that can't just sit at home all day, but that is the only thing I can do when I feel so terrible.
I just wish that the burden didn't fall on him. I try to hide it from him. I call my mother and cry to her a lot. I call my best friend who is 4 hours away and cry to her, but it doesn't help. I have had previous boyfriends break up with me because they can't handle how "emotional" I am. My biggest fear is that no one will want to be with me because I'm "crazy" or "over emotional".